they all fall down

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 06:35:22 GMT

Just updating to let you all know i'm still alive, unfortunately.

Dad is getting remarried. I hate her, she will never replace my mother.

set me free, your heaven's a lie

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 18:30:54 GMT

i guess i really havent update sience last year around this time..

in a nutshell ive been through hell and back once again and things are always getting worse..i feel really guilty because there were two people who i was friends with but i started lieing to them because i was jelous of them..anisha and corrina im really sorry..if you read this please find it in youre caring hearts to forgive me..im unworthy of befriending people like yourselves..

help me
"the cuts keeps getting deeper as i bleed through another year"

Thu, 01 Jan 2004 05:56:02 GMT

happy 2004..i dread saying that i lived through 2003, here comes another year where i want nothing more then to stop living.

--cheers--

Wed, 31 Dec 2003 08:38:21 GMT

Well guys i fineally jumped on the bandwagon...im not really writing to anyone tho because i just got this and i dont have any friends yet. So real its uncanny. I hate my life so much right now , i hate the fact that when mom died dad had us move here. I miss cali, i hated everyone there and i didnt have many friends but the friends i did have i miss. I miss john most of all , i never had a chance to tell him how i really felt. I wonder if he felt the same for me? Well , its to late now, he is the only one who could even begin to understand me. He will always see me as the best friend tho , the "little sister" he never had , nothing more.

I hate life.